10-10-10

So today.. is an awesome global event!
10-10-10- Global work Party is taking place in over 7000 events in 188 countries.
Somehow I was swept up in the awesomeness of this event, and I decided to take on organizing a community event.
It seemed like a great idea at the time... but now at 9:45 am on the morning of, after 2 hours of huffing marker fumes making signs, I am wondering if it was really a good idea.
Having MS and the stroke has forced me to redesign my life. To be honest, I function very well in my home space. I can rest whenever I need to, easy access to the toilet, at home I can almost imagine that I am totally well. I run most of my business from my home via the internet. You cannot see or hear the exhaustion in an email.
I carefully choose and time when I am in very public situations.
Before the stroke I was a person on superspeed all of the time. Everyday people would say things like "Wow ,how do you do it all?" or "I wish I had half of your energy"
Those sentences have been replaced by, "Did you hurt your leg?" or "Wow you look tired"
My coping strategy has been to retreat.
Unfortunately, it is very hard to change one's nature and I find myself today and many days in the position of putting myself out there again..probably pushing myself too hard but being so rewarded by the human interaction that I keep doing it.
We will see Happy 10-10-10 everyone!